I’ve started and stopped writing several posts over the past few weeks and never hit the “Publish” button for whatever reason. I think the biggest part of it is that I let things pile up until I feel like I have something worthy of blogging, but by that time, there is just so much I don’t even know where to begin. So… the solution I’ve come up with is not to catch up on all of the past events but to start fresh and post about what’s going on now. And for the next 7 days post every single day…just something short.
The only thing that I can think of for now is to point you to this new site that I’m really digging Where We Do What We Do. It’s just as the name suggests…pictures of workspaces. I don’t know why I find it interesting, but I’m really curious about what people have on their desks, walls, etc. It also makes me want more art and a better (more modern) desk. Anyway.
That’s it for day one of the experiment. Bring on day 2!
I can’t explain it, but over the past few weeks and months I’ve been having these moments. I just get flushed with emotions and my eyes well up with this salty substance that I’ve been told are called “tears”. I quickly wipe them away and try to think about manly things like baseball, dirt, or guns. But no matter how I try to ignore it, it keeps coming back, this feeling of joy, peace, happiness.
Over the past several years of my life I’ve been known to be less than optimistic in most situations. In fact, I’ve been passive-aggressive, pessimistic, and hyper-critical of pretty much everything. Now, I’m not going to even suggest that I’m completely cured of all of this, but I will say that over the past 6-8 months I have begun down the path to setting things right.
So, why the change? Well, I can’t completely explain it, but to say it’s been a journey. Jen and I had a great experience with Radio City in the fall which gave me a new passion and love for people. Then we came home and I got into a small group with a few other guys at church. On top of that, I was given a great job and just have been blessed time and time again for no apparent reason. So, today…I’m sitting on the lawn mower, giving the grass a chop, the sun is shining and I’m thinking “wow, life is good. Thank You God!”
I could go on and on about how much God has done for me, but my words would simply fall short of doing it all justice. So, I’ll leave it at that.
Fall is here. It arrived yesterday. For about 2-3 years running now, it’s been kind of a 2 season rotation…no fall or spring, just summer and winter. 3-4 days ago it was 92. Today it’s 56. Feels more like winter I guess really. Last night when I went to take out the trash and heard something I hadn’t heard in a few months…complete silence. all the bugs are about to go hibernate or die or whatever it is that bugs do when it gets too cold for them. It was kind of eerie…but I’ll get used to it.
It’s funny how the house shifts when it gets cold…we usually keep the air on during the summer…somewhere between 68-70 degrees. When winter is here we push it to like 72-75. It doesn’t make sense unless you’ve lived in an old house. The floor is FREEZING and the thermostat just doesn’t quite get that concept yet.
Speaking of houses…we went and looked at one a few days ago. It wasn’t “perfect”, but it was very, very nice. It’s kind of frustrating because I really didn’t want to like the house…i wanted the inside to be junky and require too much work…but it wasn’t bad…at all. With a little paint and some minor renovations it could be a great place. Of course there’s always the minor issue of money that comes into play. We’ll see what happens.
10 days until we head off to work. I’m a little excited but also a little hesitant…with each year that passes our roots grow deeper here in Ohio making it that much more difficult to leave. With that said, I know it will be good for us to get away, to have contact with “the world” and make some money.
Jen is still a knitting fool. She started the process last year at Radio City and now a year later I don’t think there’s anything that she can’t do. I’m curious to see how her talent is used during the run…maybe she’ll become the mentor to some prospective knitters? I’m still waiting on some socks, or a hat, or even a sweater. Seems like everyone else is in line before me. Oh well…I’m glad to see her find something she’s so passionate about.
well, that’s about it for this round…at the rate i”m going I’ll post again sometime in 2008. jk. maybe as life gets more interesting, so will this blog. stay tuned.
Lately, I’ve found myself wishing for more passion in my life. No, not that kind of passion. I just mean, I wish there was something that I was truly passionate about. There are a dozen things that I like or enjoy…and I would say that I’m good at most of them. But there isn’t really one particular thing that I’m great at…nor is there one thing that I’m particularly passionate about.
I like technology, but I sometimes wish I could leave it behind for a simpler life.
I like photography, but days and often weeks pass without pressing the shutter once.
I like music, but I’ve never wrote my own song or formed a real band.
I like graphic design, but I don’t know much of anything about flash, css, or php.
I could go on and on… I don’t know if I’m just afraid to commit to something out of fear of failure or if I’m too proud to let the other things go. or ???
Today while out on the golf course I told my friend Doug, that “the name of the game is consistency. You don’t have to be the best, just know what you’re going to do and that’s enough”. I guess some of that logic could be used here. It’s not that I want to be the best in all the world at whatever I do, but I do want to find consistency and know that I am good enough.