I can’t explain it, but over the past few weeks and months I’ve been having these moments. I just get flushed with emotions and my eyes well up with this salty substance that I’ve been told are called “tears”. I quickly wipe them away and try to think about manly things like baseball, dirt, or guns. But no matter how I try to ignore it, it keeps coming back, this feeling of joy, peace, happiness.
Over the past several years of my life I’ve been known to be less than optimistic in most situations. In fact, I’ve been passive-aggressive, pessimistic, and hyper-critical of pretty much everything. Now, I’m not going to even suggest that I’m completely cured of all of this, but I will say that over the past 6-8 months I have begun down the path to setting things right.
So, why the change? Well, I can’t completely explain it, but to say it’s been a journey. Jen and I had a great experience with Radio City in the fall which gave me a new passion and love for people. Then we came home and I got into a small group with a few other guys at church. On top of that, I was given a great job and just have been blessed time and time again for no apparent reason. So, today…I’m sitting on the lawn mower, giving the grass a chop, the sun is shining and I’m thinking “wow, life is good. Thank You God!”
I could go on and on about how much God has done for me, but my words would simply fall short of doing it all justice. So, I’ll leave it at that.